Current mood:

busy

Some more PaCO stuff
Yet more about the Pagan Campus Organization. (For the stuff about what's already over, it's just hard to get over some of this stuff, you know? I just gotta get it out somewhere.)

Anyway, I've got to get to campus today. There's a whole list of things that PaCO needs done. I'll see what I can do by myself, and then see who's available and when to do the rest.

We're trying to recover from the damage Michelle has done, but it's rough. She did manage to screw up a few things for us in her secret plot to get Zeus thrown out.**

Where before, the departments we needed things from on campus were perfectly friendly and happy to help me get things for PaCO, they are now standoffish and rude, because Michelle got Gustavo Burkett to bully them over her "no non-students" thing, so even though our group tossed her traitorous, discriminatory ass out, these departments are no longer willing to help me, because they don't want to be yelled at again for helping a non-student.

Now, this isn't the biggest problem ever, but it's a decent-sized pain in the ass. Sure, we can have the Officers and other student members do most things-- which they should anyway, but if they can't and need another willing member to do it, the member should be allowed to-- but, some things are just easier if they'll talk to me once in a while, since, at this point, I do all our design work. I made the buttons design pages we need laser-printed. I make flyers. David tried to email the buttons files to the lady who could get them printed for us, but his email wouldn't send them, so I did it. Easy. But then, they were mean about it.

I mean, it's ONE thing to be standoffish or ignore a non-student because you don't want to get bullied again, but it's a TOTALLY SEPARATE thing to be rude to a student officer just because they are asking that files from a non-student get accepted for the group. You know what? A student officer actually HAS the right to pass on the wishes of the group, and if they say it's ok to take design work from a non-student because, yes, the group needs it, then, you know what? It SHOULD be OK. Come on, what planet are you University people on??

So, Gustavo pushing this "no non-students" thing on other departments, which our group doesn't need to listen to-- HE said the group could vote on whether or not it accepts non-students as equals, and it DID, so that's that-- is hindering our progress, and that pretty much sucks. Gah. A guy whose job it is to HELP Student Orgs shouldn't go out of his way to HINDER them that much. Sick.

So anyway, trying to help the new officers as much as I can. Hoping that PaCO will be fully recovered as soon as possible. Whew.

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**Yeah, that's what it was all about. Did I mention that yet? The three weeks of hell she dragged PaCO through was all about the fact that SHE didn't like Zeus, and was willing to sacrifice everything to get rid of him. She went whining to Gustavo at Student Orgs to say, "I want to be fair and democratic, BUT, we have to get rid of Zeus, how do we do it?". So that's why everything got fucked up. All the while, she put on a fake face, and said that "it's the University's rule, not mine", while it was JUST HER PLAN to get rid of him, not the University's rule at all. She just wanted to use whatever bits of University stuff she could grab hold of to push her own agenda. She was two-faced and back-stabbing, trying to pull shit to get her own way. And she attacked at least 4 of us to do it.

She had the nerve to say things like "I don't appreciate a forced election to get rid of me", when all the while SHE was the one trying to use whatever she could in order to force Zeus out. She brought the election down on HERSELF by pulling that shit. Duh. Of COURSE she lost the election. Pagan groups don't discriminate, and they don't put up with that power game shit. She attacked ME as well as Zeus by pulling that "no non-students" shit. She attacked DAVID and STACY as well as Zeus by pulling her "no 'old' guys" shit. Fuck that.

The unbelievable nerve she had really pisses me off, even now. The nerve she had to lie to my face, acting like stuff was about PaCO and University shit, when it was really all about HER and what SHE wanted. She attacked ME, she attacked DAVID and STACY, in her plot against Zeus.

She attacked my friends AND me, she abused her power on the FirstClass system by deleting any post she didn't like, she stepped all over EVERYONE'S rights, and she tried to break apart and change the group I love most to suit her own, discriminatory agenda.

Of COURSE she lost the election, no one would put up with Evil Bitch shit like that. And only after she lost, did she reveal that it was really all about Zeus, all along (not that we hadn't suspected). She let PaCO suffer because of what SHE wanted. PaCO shouldn't have been dragged through this. That's just another injustice she has done to this group.

If she had some problem with Zeus, she should have just spoken up about it, not pulled power-game shit behind everyone's backs. Hell, she could have brought his presence up to a vote in the group. I'm sure she would have lost, just as she lost the election; Zeus has been very valuable to the group, getting us bonfire pits and permissions, and has been friendly and seems to be liked by the others. I suppose that's why she didn't do it. But to pull shit like this, to step on everyone's rights and back-stab, just, arrrgghh. It's sickening. It just disgusts me to see someone capable of such two-faced-ness and unjust behavior.

You can't have things both ways, either, and we SAW her trying to pull that shit. She pushed the rule that no one could vote unless they'd attended two PaCO functions, except when she said that the friend of Alora's that she liked could vote, even though she'd only been to one meeting. You can't pull things to have it both ways, you know. That's stupid as hell. She expected to say that I could come back after she'd pulled this "no non-students" shit? She told me that my cut-off from the FirstClass folder was expected to be temporary? Fuck you. When leading a group, you get things on one set of rules, or the other, NOT however you want, whenever you want. If you set a rule, and it's accepted by the group, then that's how it's going to be. You can't make exceptions ONLY when YOU feel like it, and tell everyone else they CAN'T.

If she'd have gotten her way and convinced the group to reject, for the first time in 10 years, non-students, then Zeus and I would have to leave and not come back until she was no longer President, and the group could have a chance to vote it back, if they wished. She could have tried to invite me back, as it seemed like she wanted to do, but fuck that. It's not RIGHT. For me to go back after she made it her platform to exclude non-students? What the FUCK was she thinking? When you want a group to set a rule, that's the fucking rule. You don't get to make exceptions for JUST those you LIKE. Period. I suppose it's lucky Tarsha wasn't still around. How would they justify their "no non-students" platform with her still wanting to attend?

Anyway, I guess the overall feeling I'm stuck with these days is extreme hurt.
The level of this BETRAYAL.. Just, wow.
To be willing to stand up in front of me and tell me that I don't matter anymore, to be willing to tell me that the years of effort and personal money I've given to help this group are nothing, because SHE suddenly wants the group to adopt some obscure rule so that she can further her own, personal agenda of getting rid of Zeus. To be willing to ATTACK ME, DAVID, AND STACY, to be willing to hurt anyone that might stand up for what was right, just to get her own way.

To have the nerve to try and act like some kind of victim, to whine about what a bad friend I was, when SHE was the one who did all of this?? For her to attack me and then whine like she got what she didn't deserve for all these people she hurt?

It's shocking, sickening, disgusting, and painful.