Current mood:

frustrated, helpless

Some days I can't help thinking about things, and I become overwhelmed by how much I hate this world. I hate the things that are allowed to go on in it. I wish I was a being with the capacity to punish people when they insist on hurting and damaging, and no one can do anything about it. I wish I could help people when no one else will, when no one else cares at all. I wish I could take horrible people's power away and stop them from causing so much pain.

I keep thinking about Zeus' kids. The state took them away based on one person's frivolous and baseless accusation. They have dragged out their little power game unreasonably long already. The kids are suffering, and no one cares.

They will have emotional, perhaps psychological scars from this lengthy period of separation early in their lives. It could take them years to recover from this, if they can fully recover at all. Zeus watches everything they do, from his trained perspective as a psychologist. They display a lot of confusion and perhaps developmental problems. This power game will hurt them for years, but the government does not care. They just want to show that they have power over others, in whatever petty ways they can manage.

The kids are suffering physically. The foster parents they were given to refuse to stop smoking around them, despite the laws that say they can't. The kids kept showing up to visits reeking of cigarette smoke. Their health is in danger, and no one cares. No office gives any regard to the complaints filed by Zeus. They won't lift a finger, law has no meaning.

There is evidence to say that these foster parents are sexually abusing Zeus' son, and neglecting his daughter- not feeding her enough, not taking care of her. Still, the government does not care. Why should they care if the people they chose are highly dangerous to children? Why should they care if the trash they let become foster parents are sexual abusers? All that matters to them is the power game, and how much they can hurt a family if they choose.

The official psychologist has already decided Zeus is no threat to his kids. That would be obvious to anyone who knows him. He talks about his kids all the time, and it is clear that he cares about being a good father. Very few males I have encountered, if any, showed this much interest in fatherhood. I don't know where anyone would get the idea he could have ever been a threat.

The agency that watches the visits are looking at the evidence that the foster parents have been sexually abusing and neglecting the children to build a case. That's good, but it will be of no use. No one else will care. No one will do anything. If lucky, this trash will lose their permissions to foster, and will not be able to abuse any more children. But they will not get thrown in jail for 50 years, or anything else that they deserve for what they've done. The legal system doesn't do shit for anyone, ever. All the legal system will do is harass victims for daring to bother them with their problems.



One thing that always gets me is the tragedy of people who never even know what they've done. I think that people should know what they have done to others. If nothing else, they should know. I never get over how frustrating it is that people will do things that hurt others and never even acknowledge it. Some jerk in traffic nearly causes an accident by the stupidity of their driving, by ignoring a yield sign and cutting across two lanes when you're driving right there, and you almost hit them because of what they've just done, and they never even look. They probably don't even know you're there. They have no idea the danger they put you in, and they don't care.

Someone gets all huffy, or meddlesome, and thinks they know something they have no clue about, so they call a government agency, and bam. Over a year of pain and suffering inflicted on two, innocent children. Given over to sexually abusive and neglectful foster parents who are allowed to get away with it. Two innocent children, confused and isolated, left with trash who treat them poorly, removed from the safety of their home, separated from their protecting father, for a year or more. Suffering. And the person who called has no idea. They probably don't even care. They probably haven't given a thought to it since the week they called, so long ago. They likely don't even know how long this has dragged out, and how long the children have suffered in pain because of them. They don't even know. Would they ever care?

Of all oddities that could have occurred, Zeus and I were talking about my old days at college, and I had mentioned a girl named Decha [dechavu], who I met a few times at some things back then. He said that she was the one who called to get his kids taken away. I still don't even know what to think of that. She was friends with so many good people I knew, it's hard for me to imagine them associating with someone capable of that. I wonder if anyone will ever tell her of the year's worth of horrors that have been visited on these children because of her. I wonder if she'll ever know their pain and suffering. I wonder if she even cares.

But I still feel that never knowing is worse than knowing and not caring. At least people should know what they've done.